I'm Still Alive

So, it’s been awhile. I’ve been pretty absent online, haven’t blogged since October, and I can’t even remember the last time I sent out a newsletter.

I can’t even remember if I’ve mentioned it here, but I have a job now. I work for Indigo, which is Canada’s main bookstore. It’s a part-time job, but it feels full-time with the amount of shifts I’ve had, plus my extra-long commute. The job has been great- I love working at Indigo with other book people. It’s pretty awesome when a customer buys a book off of one of my recommendations. The people I work with are awesome.

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But it’s been hard adjusting to this new life. I’ve had fourteen years of being at home with my kids. Of having TIME. Which is a laugh because I didn’t even have time then, but now? Let’s just say it’s been a struggle keeping up with everything I have to do. I’ve always been a pretty scheduled person, but that isn’t possible now with varying shifts. I find myself cleaning bathrooms at nine pm at night or taking three days to get my laundry done. I’m not around for my kids all the time anymore and this makes me sad. I haven’t gotten a handle on it all yet and it’s so frustrating. Worst part is the two things that are sliding are my yoga and my writing life- the two things I did for me.

This isn’t meant to be a complaint post. There are tons of authors out there who’ve done this for years. It’s just new to me and I’m still trying to find my footing. I’ve downloaded Word on my phone and I’m going to try tiny bursts of writing on my commute or during my breaks. If that doesn’t work, I might have to do some 5am wake-ups. I haven’t given up, but I do wish figuring this all out would happen a bit faster. Here’s hoping.